The mid of my break

So far, I haven’t done anything this break as is that exciting to share. I have been trying to regulate on my eating, such as eating breakfast like wake up enough for it. Then there is eating healthier food. I haven’t touched any unhealthy food in a long time, such as soda and junk food. Instead of today… my dad bought pizza and cookies and I can’t just say no to my old man. Anyway, I started to play league of legends, in my earlier time while my siblings are still in school.

I’m more excited for my late plans such as the Christmas party that is hosted by me at my friend’s house. I got all my friends their gifts since like November so I need the space in my room to clean it all out.
I also am excited for Christmas eve with my guy and new years eve, since I got something planned out.
Though, he didn’t really plan anything out but it’s okay. I can do it. haha

And then there was January. I just ordered my mom some flowers (her favorite is lavenders) and what sucks is I can’t be there.
My family never really celebrated much birthdays, but we celebrate a hell of a lot for mother’s day and father’s day. Those two days were more of birthdays for my parents than their own real birthdays. And the reason why I can’t be there because I have a New York City trip for 5 days with my guy. It was already planned out and I thought it was going to be on the 7th but that didn’t work out.
So It ended up being on the 6th.
My plan now is to have the flower delivered and when my parents sleep, I’m going to clean the house and arrange it better for them, since my mom is the first person to really wake up in the morning.

But, I’m also very excited for my New York City Trip. More about that another day.

Interesting enough I received a call from Florida. The first thing that popped in my head was that my stalker found my number again and decided to call to ask for a death wish. But it wasn’t.
It was just a friend of mine that wanted to respond to my Facebook status.
Funny…. because he thought the guy that I’m somewhat with, hurt me in some kind of way and he was going to call up his “boys” to hurt my “Guy” apparently and we talked about it.
One thing led to another, and the ending result is that my friend believes I’m being used and played.

Well… that’s new.       

More to come 🙂 

On the edge of November

I’m almost done with classes for my 1st semester as a sophomore college student. 
And yes, being 20, doesn’t feel any different.

As of right now, I’m stressing out a lot.
I was stressing over presentations, about xmas gifts, people’s birthdays, thanksgiving dinners (i have 2 to go to), dates, the weather, my classes, and final exams. 

I’m playing leagues right now but I will write more soon.

Promise

20.

So I’m finally at the age of where I’m not really a teenager anymore.
I mean sure I can definitely be like a kid or a teen at heart but I’m almost to the age to where everything is legal and boring.

I’m sure you all have felt this way before.
Getting closer to the age, or 20 or 21, makes me feel like drinking isn’t as fun anymore when it’s legal (sounds weird but i know) and you feel like stopping to do some certain stuff.

Like as if you want to grow up a little.
I don’t feel much change except that I’m old.

I’m also thinking more of my career and future and how I’m getting to the half way point of my 1st semester of my sophomore year and before I know how, I’m sure i’ll hit my 2nd semester soon and my 3rd year will come around.

This also might sound weird, but yes, I’m at the age of thinking of getting married and being in a relationship.
Your true purpose of life is to reproduce and continue life as it is today.
So, I’m getting to the point of where I’m thinking about it because college flies and before I know it…

I’ll be possibly 22 or 23 when I finish college.

Damn. That’s scary. 

Turning 20 tomorrow.

Time sure has passed and I’m already turning 20 this year, tomorrow (Sept 16).
Usually every year on my birthday, I would always have the desire to want a couple of things on my wishlist.
But this year, I decided to not want anything. At all.

Maybe it’s because i’m turning 20 and nowadays I rather do something then get something.

But not only that, I like being surprised. So, when I get a gift and it’s all wrapped up, i would always appreciate on what i end up getting.

I’m just hoping for a good birthday.
But so far, nothing has been good lately.

I’ve been very distracted lately.

Like I said on my last post I started school.
It’s Just been only 2 weeks since I started and I already changed off my french class to a communications class.

I also went through enlightenment to where I know what I wanted to major in, which is information systems.
I’m really into computer science and i want to stick with business.

Most inspirational speakers tell me that I will one day hit that moment to where I know what I want to do and I will fall in love with it.
And it happened.
I’m so grateful.

Also, that retail store that I worked at, yeah, I stopped working there after a month because the manager was just too rue to me and talked behind my back. I didn’t appreciate it. I reported her and then my friend offered me to a place to work, which is a CVS. Well it’s a way better pay than my retail job. But I also wanted to work possibly at an H&M.  (Apparently has a good pay) 
With school, I’m satisfied.
With my work life, I’ts getting there.

My love life. Ugh… It’s not exactly where I wanted it to be.
But I’m not looking too fondly over it.
The guy I like… at times he’s like a robot. Would it be bad if I just got really tired of him because I feel like he doesn’t really like me or cares for me?

Maybe he does, but like I said he’s like a robot. It’s always so hard to tell.
And he’s a man of weakness. He lets everything get to him.

The littlest things. From that, he can’t even handle or control his anger when there’s work and family.
He wanted to work on himself. But how can he do that if he just lets EVERYTHING gets to him.

How can he possibly handle me? 

Everyone is just frustrating me.
Feel so alone most of the time. People going to be around me and hanging out with me doesnt make me feel less lonely.

Well there you go.
I’ll be here again tomorrow because I have a lot of time on my hands nowadays.

By the way… my 20th birthday is on monday… yay…