Suggestions

Most of you guys know when I go on here or when I type some sort of post, it’s usually because I’m depress, or mad or just confused; but today, I’m going to talk to you about something different.

So today i woke up at 9 am and did a full workout and man, it felt awesome. I literally forced myself to workout but it was worth it. From there I ate breakfast and then showered, got dressed then left to an all you can eat free ice cream event in Boston. It was the Jimmy Fund Scooper Bowl and I went with my boyfriend and with my friend and her boyfriend. We had a blast, ate 9 cups of ice cream and was full. Im not good with dairy so I went to the bathroom a lot today. After my boyfriend and I went for a walk around govt center then downtown and from there we went home.

We planned on going to the beach but it was so humid and we’re sore from working out and too full from all the ice cream. So at the end, he was sleeping then later playing games and I was putting in my ac, cleaning and make him drinks and food. Now I’m starting to get to the point of my post.

Yes, we had an argument.

Was there yelling ? Yes.

Did you cry ? Yes.

What’s the difference from this post to all the other posts ? I’m not mad at him.

So what? Let me get to the point now.

This all started from him being pissed at my internet and him losing the game. From that, he felt useless and like a failure from this game, therefore, an attitude was expected. He then laid on my bed and asked me what we should do tomorrow and that he won’t be able to see me until late at 5 pm. I was perfectly fine with that. I was folding clothes and cleaning and then I said, “if you’re cleaning and get tired, you can stay home if you want, I wouldn’t mind.”

This is where he started to make accusations about me. He said like, “oh you think i would take all day to clean or something?!” *with an attitude*
“Fine, I’ll just clean tonight so you can have me all day tomorrow”
“You always assume I’ll be lazy to clean and wouldn’t want to see you”
“I never asked you to suggest me anything!”

So…. when did I say all of that?
Of course I cried.
But it was because he was getting mad at me for no reason and it was from my suggestion.

I understand that he didn’t ask for my suggestion. But is it wrong that I did? I made no assumptions about how lazy he is, or if i wanted to see him or if I think he’ll take all day to clean.

All I wanted was to give him the option or resting if he needed it and it’s fine if he didn’t take my suggestion. I didn’t care. But it still didn’t give him the right to get mad at me.

So on the serious note: Never get mad about what you get. Just appreciate that you got any at all. 

Update: But not only that… the things you hear aren’t always what you think it is. At the end, what matters is the meaning of those things that you heard. 

Pax Experience

So, for those who have read my earlier posts then yes, you all know I am an otaku. I love anime and I recently attended to an anime convention (Anime Boston 2014). But this year, I got the chance to actually get one pass to going to Pax East. I never felt so lucky. 3 day passes went out after 5 to 15 minutes and 1 days passes such as Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, they got sold out in 1 hour. At the end, I got 2 Saturday passes (for my older sister and I) and so we went.

I was getting a little anxious when April arrived and when I came home from classes I got a postal mail from Pax and I finally got my badge and man… it looked amazing. So at that point, all i thought about was exploring it and playing games and getting as many free swag as I possibly can.

Then, it was that Saturday morning and I left my house along with other at 8 am and I also woke up earlier to shower, got dressed, make up, and pack a couple of sandwiches (because I heard the lunch there was quite expensive and fatty, but i ended up buying a donut burger anyway). From there, we drove to the Expo Center and parked then got on the bus and got in line to get into the Expo Hall (where all the awesomeness happens). So, I thought the doors opened at 8 but it actually opened at 10 so we waited in line for 2 hours, but it was worth it. There were people who came there a lot earlier, possibly 7. I got there at 830. People were lining up sitting, playing their 3ds, ds, card games, talking, naps, playing on their phones, taking photos until a little bit around 930, people started to pass around beach balls in the air. It was fun, but it wasn’t fun once your head gets knocked out like 3 times. Then the gates opened.

People walked in and i honestly did not know where to start. We started to walk around and got to the riot league of legends booth *that was important, we wanted free skins*… BUT WE HAD TO EITHER DANCED FOR IT OR ANSWER TRIVIAL QUESTIONS.
I decided to dance, so I danced the Ahri dance *run devil run*, EASY PEASY!! ❤ 

So from there my friends and boyfriend got separated to do our own thing for the whole day so I sticked along with my sister and we basically went to every booth, got free swag, bags, tee shirts, pins, and a lot of free codes for other company’s new games and even entered into their raffles. We played at least 7 games that day. It was AMAZING. I never knew how much I loved games until going to pax and actually sitting down and playing their demos. I love trying new things. After that, we met up and went to eat and my sister had to leave and at the end it was just my boyfriend and I.

It was our first time really going to a video gaming convention and it was great and fun and smelll…yy (?). After that I left to go to get more free stuff and walk around then I lined up for the Saturday Night Concerts and it WAS AMAZING!!
First it was the CliffNotes, they were a new band by sisters and their songs were so cute and funny and also clever.
After it was a rapper (pretty famous in the more nerdier side) and he was funny. 
I was waiting for the last one and it was VGO (the Video Game Orchestra). THEY GAVE ME SHIVERS. THEY WERE WICKED AWESOME.
So I basically ended my night there and came home at 1 am or 2 am in the morning. I had a blast and i’ll try to definitely go next year for all 3 days and maybe I’ll also cosplay as someone from league of legends ans compete in the cosplay shows there too. 
If you guys really want to find out more, just go to their website! It’s a great experience. I think I’ll keep going to pax for the next… 5 years or so. hehe! 

That’s all for today! Nighty Night. 

what does love mean to you?

So today, i was just thinking about this very special person. This person knew how to make my heart skip a beat.
This person knew how I felt toward them. But this person was confused to a point where _______ didn’t know what love was.
I don’t think anyone does.
I think everyone has many different ways and many different opinions about love so I started to ask around.
I came across a lot of heart felt and interesting things when it came to love to those people.
And looking at all of these, I’m hoping one day, this person will have their own way of knowing what love means to them.

These are real life responses I got from people from all around the world. From strangers to family members to friends. Here they are:

[Note: Each quote is all different people]

Me: So what does love mean to you?

“It’s when you care about someone or something so much that you would do anything for it or him or her and can’t live without them.”

“Being willing to give up anything and everything for a person, without actually having to because they don’t want you to.”

“Loyalty, security, trust, and comfort with one another. When a person is “in love” that means that they have found a companion, friend, and a counselor (when the individual is at their darkest points). “Love” is knowing that no matter how you act, meaning you can be wrong or right, the person will still stand by you. When someone is willing to sacrifice their dignity, life, and time for you that means they love you. “Love” is not only for those in a relationship. It is for friends, family, and so on. Love is the willing-fullness to invest all of ones emotions, effort, and willingness to understand towards someone.”

“To me love is putting someone else before your need. Its selfless. Its encouraging and empowering. Its also an effort, love isn’t just going to appear on a white horse; you need to chase it and find it.”

“Love is biochemically no different then eating large amounts of chocolate. It’s the largest flaw in all of humanity and serves no purpose than to cause large amounts of suffering for a small amount of pleasure. Sorry I’m a cynic who doesn’t really believe in love.”

“Love is when two people can share the same feelings with each other and not be afraid to do so. It’s about negotiation and partnership. Love can also be for your family where it is cherished the most.”

“Love means putting someone else’s happiness before your own. Living for them and living to see them smile. (: “

“It has no meaning to me. Or I can’t think of any way to define it.”

“Love is a feeling that occurs when you have strong feelings for someone/something, and those strong feelings transcend to something more. Deeper than addiction, more complex than an obsession. Its love, love is that ultimate attraction.”

“Love is indescribable with only words because its an art form of actions with the words from the heart.”

“Love is when you give up your soul to someone else and they do the same back to you.”

“Love to me mean – having someone there for you, you can trust, talk to when needed or at anytime , someone who’s loyal. i know, sounds stupid.”

“Love means knowing that you’re safe with someone, knowing that the feeling when you look at them in the eyes and know that they feel the same and just the feeling that only one person could give you.”

“Love means caring for someone brother/lover/friend even if you cant be with them or around them, it means holding they’re hand when times are good and times are tough. listening to their stupidity and their brilliance. Fighting for the people and things that matter the most.”

“Being able to accept faults and merits on good and bad days, commitment and being able to do what you feel is the best for yourself and someone else. Love is ever-growing and nurturing. it isn’t stagnant, and feels warm and enveloping.” 

“Love to me is pretty short I guess. If you care for someone enough and find yourself constantly interacting with them with few arguments, then it could be love. Mostly caring about someone enough that you’d put their safety over your own. But yeah I guess caring lol.”

“Love = caring for someone enough to do whatever you can for them. Being able to deal with all their troubles and problems and still smile and feel happy that they’re there. No matter what happens you can overcome it and be happy together like being together for the first time. Pretty much what I think love is being able to conquer anything together”

“Love, is about something someone that u really really like that could make u happy and will miss it so much when u r away of it.”

“Love is…when you get boner just by looking at your partner in the eyes…. awhhhhhh.”

“Love is pretty much all the cliches of love (trust, honesty, caring respect). Cliches, but they’re the truth of it.”

“uhm sex? LOL. I don’t know. A feeling.”

After reading all these, these all definitely made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Some are pretty dark but others are most very sweet.
I really enjoy asking for others opinion.
But do you know it’s funny? I didn’t even give you my opinion about what love means to me.

Guess what? Not going to tell you 🙂

Where do we go now?

Today was the first day we actually got to sit down and talk about what happened.
Of course,  if we wanted things to work then we had to set some ground rules and some things we need to work hard on to make us work. I mean, it is obvious that we want to be with each other.

At the end, things work out and honeslty, I definitely don’t want us to fight like how we did. I’m just hoping things will work out and it did.

Anywho, after fights or tears or anger where do we go from there? We kissed. (No shit,  Sherlock).
Ha, we move on. We look forward to future plans like, our most closest plan is going to PAX East.  It’s my first time going and I’m super excited.

But honestly, after all that pressure, I feel a lot better and now I feel like I can sleep soundly and better.

Too tired to talk. I’m sorry for this short blog post, but I will definitely talk more soon. Byee

Happiest moment of my life.

When happy things happen to me, I cried. Like tears of joy and that rarely happens.
So I’m going to tell you guys about today. So today, my club was co-sponsering a video game club for a nintendo festival. 
And it was time for the raffle prizes and this was the first time I’ve ever won something… like my name being called out.
I won a pikachu pet toy like a tamodachi toy. 
It was a vintage toy too. I’ve never won ANYTHING before. Trust me.
That was only today. Here’s a list of my most best pride and joy moments:

1. When I was picked to be a representative for my international school to go to Switzerland and to make a presentation,  work with the UN and fight against poverty.
2. When I won a contest online from a friend’s website
3. When my boyfriend got me a snow necklace and earrings and made me tear up.
4. When I lost weight
5. When I fought back my bully in dance class in international school
6. When my boyfriend makes me laugh and he smiles and laughs back (I’m serious)
7. When I purchase my first personal towel that was 2 bucks
8. When someone opens up to me and takes care of me that I never expected to care about me or would ever talk to me.
9. When I finish. Lol.  (inside jokes)

Funny. I can’t think of anymore even if I had a lot in my head but I didn’t type fast enough so I forgot most of them. But it’s okay. I’ll probably think of more.
Well that’s all for tonight.

Free event in Boston, Ma? Whaaaaatt??

Hello fellow bloggers and hopefully you guys are also in Boston~

Hi you guys 
I’m the Vice President of AAA (Asian American Association) at Suffolk University.
We would like to invite you to our free event on February 7th, 2014 at 7 pm.
Doors open at 6 pm.
It’s a showcase that we host every year with free food, dancing, singing, and win prizes !

The show is called Chinese New Year Celebration.
I will link you guys about it down below for the details!
Please let us know on our event page if you’re attending.

https://www.facebook.com/events/639027699493372/

Hope to see you there!!

That 3 days left

For the past break so far, I’ve been at home and avoiding the cold (most of my friends are like that too), I mean I do live in the northeastern side ;__; It’s cold.
I did catch up with the tv shows such as “Let’s Eat” the Korean drama and also “Gossip Girl” since all my friends have watched and so does my guy.

As of right now, I am extremely excited for my New York City trip with my so called crush or 5 days and 4 nights. It’s going to be very fun! I’m also excited for cleaning my room and there’s only 3 days left before the trip and I’m also excited for donating my books as well as my clothes that I don’t wear.
I will definitely post a lot more and I might even stream my games since I haven’t stream in a while because my internet is extremely bad.
I will get back to you guys soon! 

Streaming (Part 2)

So in my last post, I said I would be streaming a lot more on Justin.Tv
But the program wasn’t working so great on there so I moved to Twitch.tv
So look me up 🙂 

twitch.tv/ilylpandabear

Anyways, I will definitely write a lot more some time later today. I’m just feeling a little tired and plus it’s still morning for me xD 

I’m sorry.

School has started and I always feel like I’ve abandoned my blog.
So I apologize.
School hasn’t really been stressful, but it’s more time consuming. 
I’m a sophomore this year and including having to take 6 classes as well as doing club activities as vice president of the club im in (yay meee~~), it just takes a lot of time out of my hands.

Let’s see what is there to update?
Well, on Sept 16th, my best friends and even the guy i like was ignoring me for 2 weeks to plan out a surprise party for me.
It was a surprise that I almost cried. Well I did.
To me, it was extremely thoughtful. 

Now I just want to do my best to make the best of all my friends’ birthdays and as well as my older sister. She’s turning 22 in October. 4th.

Anywho, I’m still single… (haha~~~…) and my friends and i are still good. But I haven’t gotten a chance to hang out out with them much. 
Hopefully, I can make it up to them if I catch up on my classes.
Being sick and also still being in my summer stage, makes it really hard.

But, I promise to write more because I really miss this.
This is the moment when I listen to music and just type or sometimes in silence.

Well see you soon! Time to catch up on my anime xD 

Do you know what I love the most?

Mail.
Packages from Fedex, UPS. etc.

I love receiving something from someone through the door, the post office or even a letter that is fat. I love surprising myself with reading the letter or gifts.

College was the most fun. It was the first time I got a lot of mail all for myself for the first time and then there was online shopping when I had money. It was also amazing.

Maybe I’m just being selfish because I said I love getting gifts and expect people to get my gifts. I mean… I feel like when someone is receiving a gift, it’s probably because they earned it. 
Anyway, I know most adults will tell me, ” you’ll hate it once you get older because of bills”

Thanks for the advice.

I’ll make sure to pay it on time 🙂